Sitting across the table, gazing out of the window, with a
coffee mug in my hand sometimes I feel I am thinking something deep,
philosophical. How my life is taking turns, how it has come to this, failures,
success, happy moments, sad moments, terrible, terrifying, well and many more
verbs and adjectives. But at the end I realize all I do is measuring my life in
terms of adjectives that do not mean anything in far above of everything where
there is just eternity and nothing else. Why do we do that, why do we try to
measure everything that happens to us, why can’t we just live as life goes day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute and
second by second. As said in Bhagwad Geeta by Lord Krishna just do your Work,
just Act Right, and don’t think of
whether you will succeed or fail. Well at the end of the trail of thoughts I
feel stupid, I feel idiot to have thought all those things, because life does
not change JUST by thinking, It
changes when you act, when you make decisions.
But again one can’t stop thinking; one must not stop
thinking because sometimes that is what makes us sane person. I always remember
this one little thing; I travel by local trains in Mumbai extensively. I travel
to my office daily, while returning I always find few poor children begging in
that particular boogie, always the same ones. It’s true if you’re a regular
traveler in Mumbai locals on any one route you may often find same poor people
begging every day, it’s a fact! So coming back these small little children
beg every day and I watch them, observe them, frankly speaking I sometimes give
them money and sometimes I don’t. But they move me.
There’s a twinge of pain I feel every time when I see them. I just can’t
imagine how they live, with few coins everyday what do they eat, what goals they
can have. What ambitions they can achieve. What possibly is there life!!!! For
some people it may be mundane thing but for me every day it is a painful
experience.
Now when I juxtapose my situation and this situation , how
do I even have a right to have those hypocritical fancy philosophical thoughts
of measuring life’s parameter when there are people in this world who don’t
even have privilege of sitting and thinking,
who have to beg for their food, who have to beg for shelter.
Then I think we have been delinquent in upbringing such struggling people as a
society. Sometimes I just can’t get acquiesce to the idea that I have to live
my life and certain underprivileged class of people will have to live there’s. We
as a society or I as a person hopes that someday there will be a balance in
society or such class of people will
surely get help. But then sometimes HOPE is just amother fancy word.
Unless we inculcate on minds of one another that unless we
stand up and help, that unless we as a society make decision that something
needs to be done, I feel nothing will change. There has to be some conscious
effort from us rather than just blaming the governance and government for it.
Envisaging that “everything will be fine” picture at the end does not change
present day's fact. I feel that is the essence of ACTION as above mentioned
lesson from Bhagwad Geeta. Yes you don’t worry about results, don’t expect them
but it is our choice what work we do, what actions we take, decisions we make.
With this trail of memory I go back to the work I was doing.
You know as they say in French c’est la
vie, and life goes on. But I believe someday we have to change, we must; at least I
will, by making right decision; right choice.
